Afraid of Being Unknown

 
I think we
write because we’re afraid no one will hear us otherwise.

At least I
am.

We’re
afraid, deep down inside, that we might go unnoticed, unheard, unseen. The thought
of never being known, truly– in all our mess and glory—is as paralyzing
as swimming with great whites.

Tonight I
stepped outside to let the dogs out. It amazed me to see, through the shifting
clouds and falling snow, a full moon. It was only a small, quiet observation
but something inside me yearned to tell someone; to bring them in on my private
sight.

But there
was no one; only four sleeping bodies slumbering under comforters.

My heart,
our hearts, reach out for someone, anyone (ahem, Facebook, Pinterest, Tumblr,
Blogger . . .) who will hear us. I cry when I feel no one understands. I can
grow bitter when I feel all alone.

But, in
reality, that’s faithlessness.

Because
there is One who knows our every thought. He is keenly aware of our joys and
delights and He knows our silent sobs. Jesus Christ knows you, and, would you
believe it, He knows me too.

Marriage
is beautiful because it’s the tale of two people knowing one another. As a
couple progresses from friends to husband and wife, they choose to delight in
the thoughts and ideas and ways of each other.

 God
calls us to know Him in the same manner. To delight ourselves in Himself and to
find His ways light. To choose Him and learn to know Him. 

So, I
guess the truth of this is that I don’t have to be afraid anymore. Not with a
Lord like that.
 
“But
without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must
believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek
him.” Hebrews 11:6
. . .
P.S. For clarification,
I love blogging and I have no plans on (cough, cough) ever stopping. It’s only
that believe I need to find Christ my all-in-all and turn to Him with my heart.
Not every other kid on the block.
Because God is
reality.
J

 

 

 

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