My pursuit of delight has been changing things. Like any change there are difficult days but overall, the fruit of pursuing a heart which delights in the Lord and that recognizes His delight in me has been wonderful.
Recently, I stumbled across an article which spoke life into my tattered, perfection-seeking heart. I love Jordan Lee’s words,
For a couple years, I think I tried to become that perfect girl for awhile. For a long time I sacrificed my character for my reputation. I wanted to look perfect. The good girl. The successful girl. The one who had it all together. But I was living a lie – the lie that I would be more Christian if I could be more perfect. I lost myself in the process. I lost honesty, vulnerability, and joy. And I hurt my relationships in the process.
I understand. I know the pain-filled lie trying to be perfect brings. Even at twenty-six my heart gets sidetracked chasing being good enough. Internally, I yearn to be righteous enough to make it on my own. I ache to be able to say that I am free from all faults. And sometimes, honestly, I let my heart believe that I am.
This is where the pursuit of delight steps in and changes things. As I tune my heart to delight itself in the Lord — not my good works, not in my adorableness (ha!), not in my idea of perfection — I’m humbled. Life suddenly isn’t numbed by pride but alive because, well, there is a God, He is alive, in Him we live and in Him we thrive.
It’s also two-fold. I’m learning everyday that my God delights in me. Me. As I am. When I was His enemy He loved me. And even now, when I let the world distract me and along pride to be an idol, He continues to love me. My good works will not win His heart — He’s already given it.
What side do you fall on? Are you desperately trying to be the good girl? Or have you given up on being loved by God? Either way, sweet person, know that God will meet you right where you’re at and be all that you need. Need to know how? Ask.
Like that “Delight changes things” pic? It’s yours, free for the taking. Follow this link (you’ll need Acrobat Reader), download and enjoy hanging it’s 8×10 beauty on your fridge or cork board. Because we all need a little inspiration now and again. 🙂
Love, blessings, a heart growing in delight and coffee,