“Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why are thou disquieted in me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise Him for the help of His countenance. O my God, my soul is cast down within me; therefore I will remember Thee from the land of Jordan … the LORD will command His lovingkindness in the daytime, and in the night His song shall be with me, and my prayer unto the God of my life.” Psalm 42:5,6,8
Every once in a while I catch the blues; you know, the Eeyore-like tendency to see the world colored in grey, fearful, and unhappy? And don’t worry, I sometimes felt this way before my time in the hospital.
And while I know that God knows our frame and understands what gets us down, I want to be victorious through the emotional, blue days. And that’s where the verses above come into play.
Today, I choose to hope in God. (Hope in His unfailing love, His constant presence, and His good will.)
I choose to have expectations of His help; I choose to praise Him in the blue, icky days because I know I will receive help from His countenance.
I choose to quite pretending I’m perfect and admit to the Lord that I am hurting.
And then I choose to meditate and remember His previous workings in my life (the recents include giving us a sweet child, letting me not miscarry, letting me not go into labor even though my water broke weeks ago, and providing us with so much joy in the waiting. The past workings include my wonderful upbringing and childhood, my salvation at 16, Him freeing me from bondages of sin, providing a perfect husband, bringing friends and community into our lives). The list can go on and on. Already, my hope is rising because I am remembering how good God has been.
And finally, I choose to keep hoping in God. I choose to trust that His lovingkindness is with me during the day and that His song (what? God sings over me? That’s cool!) will be with me in the night and that He hears my prayers.
Today, even though the skies are full of grey, ominous clouds and my heart is naturally leaning toward sadness and anxiety, I choose to bring my heart to God, let Him see all the messiness of it, and let Him be my hope. Because He is so, so good and loving.
How do you deal with rainy days and anxiety? Are you going through anything that I can pray for right now? Comment below or connect with me privately!
Love, blessings, and coffee,