O What Joy That Fills My Soul- The story of a clean conscience

Dear sisters in Christ,
 Greetings on a bright and beautiful Missouri day! I hope your day is as beautiful as mine. Well, I have some very good news. I am rejoicing in the Lord’s goodness in leading me in forgiveness and repentance. I’ve had some struggles (and am still dealing with them) in different areas in my life. My heart has been misleading me and I have fallen head first into different areas of sin and rebellion to my Lord- being discontent with my life right now, covetousness, rebellion to my parents (in subtle hidden ways), being unsubmissive, vainity, love of self, and a judgmental heart. Praise the Lord He shows mercy to those who call on Him! I know that many if not all of these areas gained strongholds in my heart and so it will be a battle to overcome them, but  “because greater is he that is in you [me], than he that is in the world” I can have victory through Jesus my LORD! 1 John 4:4. As you can tell I’m very excited.

I just want to encourage every girl to maintain a pure and clean conscience before the Lord. We must remember that He is holy and requires us to be so as well. I hope to continue “in well doing” and apply my heart to godly things. Here are a few good things I can do, we all can do, to continue and press on in the Lord.

~ Learn to love the LORD with all our heart. I can do this by finding joy in His will- things like obeying my parents, loving my siblings, being modest inside and out, controlling what I see and hear, speaking only good and pure things, watching what my mind thinks on, and offering my life as a living sacrifice. These things seem so simple, but they really require an effort on our parts. Good works do not always come natural to us. Find practical ways to improve in the good works God desires of us!

~ Have a daily quiet time and prayer time. Oh the joy that comes from having a quiet time! I’ve neglected this many times and have learned that it does not pay off. Something I’ve learned is to make your quiet time your own. Enjoy it. I’ve been trying to read at least one chapter from the Old and New Testament each day and then I write down any lessons I’ve learned. . .this has helped really soak in what I read. I’ve really enjoyed this and look forward to pressing on! 🙂

~ Think on good things. Oh the difficulties that plague me when I choose to think on ungodly things! Let’s remember that we are not our own and that God requires us to be clean in the heart. He alone can see our  impure thoughts (sin) and it grieves Him dear sisters! Let’s remember Philippians 4:8 which says,
“Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.”

These are just a few things that I know I can improve on. God has given us such an important opportunity and privilege in serving Him. Let’s do it with all our hearts dear sisters!!

God bless you as you press on!
 With love,

“And the Lord shall deliver me from every evil work, and will preserve me unto his heavenly kingdom: to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen.” 2 Tim. 4:18

We Are Not Our Own

“What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?
For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God’s.” 1Corinthians 6:19, 20
Dear sisters in Christ,
 Greetings in Jesus name! I hope this finds you well and growing in the Lord. I know I am. Last night after listening to a Charity Ministries tape by Brother Rick Leibee on the crossroads in life (Youth Bible School 2001) and listening to a tape titled “Ye are Not Your Own” from Youth Bible School 2009 by Brother Tanner Leibee, I became very convicted. Brother Rick Leibee spoke on the different crossroads in life that many young people face- our death, vanity, the world, and so on. I am very convicted because I have become closer to the world, merging with it in tiny ways, befriending it. A little bit of worldly music, a little bit of gossip, watching wrong movies, and caring too much for myself. This has brought much grief to my heart as sweet peace left and confusion took its place. Why, I wondered, am I facing so many trials and difficulties? Listening to “Ye Are Not Your Own” I realized that I am not my own and that I am Gods. It doesn’t matter if I do not feel or want to obey, I am not my own. My desire and hope is that as I grow closer to the Lord and become more fully and truly His I will want to obey. . .sweetly and quietly. I hope this post will be an encouragement to you. If you are fully surrended to the Lord. . .good, praise the Lord. But if you are struggling with your flesh and doubts, I would encourage you to turn to God’s Word and allow Him to point you the way. Ask Him for His help and trust in Him. He is the way, the truth, and the life. Only He can give abudant life.
I looked up the word surrendered on http://www.merriam-webster.com/ and found the below definition very interesting.
transitive verb
1 a : to yield to the power, control, or possession of another upon compulsion or demand b : to give up completely or agree to forgo especially in favor of another
2 a : to give (oneself) up into the power of another especially as a prisoner b : to give (oneself) over to something (as an influence)
intransitive verb
: to give oneself up into the power of another : yield
May we as Christians and daughters of the king wholeheartedly fit the above definition.

Emmie’s 20th Birthday

I just wanted to wish my dear friend, 
Emmalie Coman,

 a blessed 20th birthday tomorrow. I’m so thankful for our many, many years together and through thick and thin we’ll always  know the other one is still there. God has blessed us and brought us together as friends for His good purposes and I thank Him for giving me you as a  friend. May you have a fun and lovely day, a year full of God’s love and His peace, and the knowledge that you are always in my heart. I love you Emmie-lou! BFF, 

I created my signiture from the following website: http://www.mylivesignature.com/. Thanks Mrs. Adams for posting thuis information. I thought it was so neat and feminine!

Spilled Flour

Dear sisters in Christ,
Greetings! My heart was filled with alot of happiness a couple of weeks ago- the kind of happiness I find when I’m with family and enjoying a good laugh. But, also in my heart I had a sense of peace as I was able to rest in the love of my Lord. He is so good.
I was really blessed a couple of weeks ago by a bread machine and spilt flour. :o) Due to a shortage of bread one day I thought I would make some up. I looked over our cookbooks for just the right type of bread- something easy and fun. I jumped into my project excitedly and put the yeast into some warm water. At that time I realized that I had no butter! I quickly asked Dad if there was a subsitute for butter, of which he answered no. My frustration level jumped up a little bit- supper was on it’s way and my yeast was sitting in water. I thought for a minute of my troubles, but was quickly blessed by the assurance that God could watch over my bread and that I simply had to go get butter…there was no way to avoid it. So off I went.
When I returned home things went along quickly, although I must say something did happen that blessed me. Daddy had been having a headache all day; he even said it may have been one of his worst. Because of this, he told me that he would not want to eat dinner right away and that of course they wanted bread (garlic sticks) so he didn’t mind waiting. This was such a blessing because I didn’t have to rush around. So I merrily continued on in my bread making recipie. In order to get 7 loaves my recipie called for 5 lbs. of flour. That equals one whole bag of flour. (I really had/have never made bread before, but thought it would be easy and was imagining all the use 7 loaves would give me). So as our bread machine labors away I generously add flour. And add, and add, until it spewed up and over the machine, onto the flour, on me, and on the counter. It was quite comical. But at that moment I wanted to cry. Maybe it was me being emotional, but I just felt like nothing was going right. However, Lord was gracious to me by helping me see the funniness of the situation. How often do I get covered in flour and am allowed the great sight of seeing flour fly out of a machine and into a mist of white? Hardly ever. 🙂
Unfortunatly, none of my bread turned out; we think I didn’t let it rise long enough. For my quick and easy bread recipie I got about 4 loaves of very hard practically unusable bread. I write all of this simply to encourage my sisters in Christ to rest in God’s unfailing grace. God was so good in giving me the grace to step away from the sin of throwing a fit and ruining my family’s night. He let me see the funniness of it all and gave me grace to let go of my disapointments. Let us all rest in His control of the situation!! He is so good!!
P.S. If any one would like to leave a bread recipie for me I’ll gladly take it!
With love,
Flour bag picture taken from:

Authentic Virtue post #3- The Trials of Life and the King Who Helped Me Overcome Them.

Dear sisters in Christ,
Greetings from a sister full of joy! I want to encourage you all who are going through a difficult time, a valley, in their spiritual and physical life. I have been battling many valleys lately, since the beginning of December and I haven’t been victorious. But, I praise my Lord and Saviour who has seen me through!! While I’m dissapointed over my failures I see that God has worked them out for my good!

“And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to his purpose.” Roms. 8:28

Praise His name! I wanted to put three “valleys” which I have struggled with as of late and show you how the Lord has been there the whole time and the wonderful goodness He has to give!

Valley number 1: My Momma has been away. My Momma, who is part-time in the Air Guard, has been on a trip for a couple weeks. With her being gone I have been feeling very lonely…she is my best friend, my closest confidant. And with her being away I have been feeling anxious and depressed. Jesus has shown me that those feelings of anxiousness and emptiness are simply signs of Him needed to fill a hole in my life. But I was using my mom! And humans, no matter how dear to us, can never fill the hole in our lives. Only Jesus can! It’s like building my life upon the sand….a foolish choice because when the rain falls I will as well. ~Matt. 7:21-29

The sweetness of valley number 1 is that God helped me realize that He is enough to make me happy, to fill my heart! Besides that, He is the father of the fatherless [motherless] ~Psalms 68:5. I believe He becomes that Father even if my earthly father or mother is only temporarly away! He is that good! He is also the friend of the friendless. God is so good and if we were to only trust Him, He will fill us with joy, peace, and happiness.

So after this trial I simply want to bless and encourage my Mommy. I miss you, but Jesus can fill my heart and I hope you had a wonderful trip. And to my family at home, thank you for being there and being my friends. May I be a faithful and good servant, daughter, and sister to you all! I’m so thankful for my wonderful family!

Valley number 2: With moving away from Alaska it has been somewhat difficult to find and make friends. In the last several weeks, this has made me struggle alot with being blue or sad. Jesus again showed me that only He can fill my heart whether I have friends or not! Once again, He is the Friend of the friendless. The biggest point the Lord graciously showed me is that His ways and timing is perfect ~Ps. 18:30. It is He who has moved us here and woe be to me to grumble or complain ~Ps. 28:5. In His timing He will bring friends. Perhaps during this time He wants me to concentrate on learning to lean on and trust in Him, or maybe He wants me to use this time to allow Him to fill my heart entirely with Him ?! I don’t know! But I do know that His ways are perfect and He has only good planned for me

“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.”Jer. 29:11.

Valley number 3: This valley is similar to valley number 2. It is the valley of needing fellowship. We have found a Bible beliving church (praise the Lord!) and have been visiting there. But I have found it difficult to go through my days without close, truly like-minded fellowship. This has led to my being sad, upset, and anxious. But this is not what Jesus has intended for me! He has promised me peace and joy! So were is all of this joy and peace? I have been throwing it away for the sake of a pity-party and cheap thrills. Jesus wants me to be satisfied in Him and Him alone. When I realize that even large amounts of good, godly fellowship can’t bring me true happiness and that only Jesus can satisfy my hearts deepest longings, I begin to find joy and happiness. The lesson Jesus showed me is that, once again, He is enough. Jesus knows my deepest need and in His timing and way He will fill it. He is a good friend and will not leave us alone and anxious; instead He will give us peace and contentment when we finally rest in Him. He is so good!

“O LORD our Lord, how excellent is thy name in all the earth!” Ps. 18:9